From: Dear Me: A Collection of Letters Addressed to Various Aspects of My Self … ©Dorothy Chiotti, Aimwell CreativeWorks 2013
The third letter in a series addressed to my critical Self. The date is the actual date it was written as a free writing, and freeing, exercise.
July 10, 2013
Dear Critical One ~
Perhaps you have noticed lately that I am making the conscious effort to release the need to be perfect.
I know you’ve noticed, actually, because I can always feel you nagging away at me to …
Fix it! Fix it! Fix it!!!
You’re always nagging at me about how I use my time, asking … have I done enough; have I presented myself well enough? The sad thing for me (and disappointing for you) is nothing I ever do is enough.
You cast your critical eye over everything I do, and when you’re feeling particularly obnoxious about it you simply delete my efforts as if they never existed at all.
I would agree that learning to let go is a powerful tool for wellness, and I have adopted this rather well into my current way of being. Still, when you “let go” of something I have created, you annihilate it! There’s no loving it away. It’s an act of terror that leaves me feeling stunned and legless.
How many times have you killed the Creative One who, though she rises again like the indomitable Phoenix, must endure again and again your lust to satisfy the Perfectionist?
The Perfectionist kills authenticity.
The pursuit of something unattainable is exhausting, debilitating and hopeless. You must stop listening to the Perfectionist lest one day she stabs you in the back because YOU are not good enough.
Allow me to love you into a new way of being.
Be my ally. Embrace acceptance.
The Critical One: The First and Second Letters in a Series …
©Dorothy Chiotti, Aimwell CreativeWorks 2013
2 thoughts on “The Critical One: The Third Letter in a Series …”
Dorothy, I find acceptance and forgiveness can be one in the same. I believe that giving up the hope that the past could have been any different and letting go of a past that we thought we wanted if the most important step. Your words are inspiring. I am doing something similar to you and trying to inspire others at the same time. If ever you are interested you can find me at http://www.believeinthesummit.com
Love, equanimity, peace.
Thank you. … I’m glad you find some meaning and inspiration in my words. All the best on your own quest to inspire … Be well, Dorothy 🙂